as good as it gets

i accidentally deleted what i typed in. well, these types of things are not new to me anymore. im a little clumsy and it really gets to me when these small annoying things happen. well, it happens.

im at the office right now and yes it is my restday. im not getting that much sleep. i do not know for the life of me why im always time-strapped (if there is such a word).

on my way to the office, i wanted to take pictures of the murals on ventus' walls but changed my mind. i didnt do it because there were people loitering and smoking outside the building, i feel very uneasy if alot of people are looking at me.. im not saying that they will but the thought of it makes me quiver. i would start to sweat and feel uncomfortable. so i just continued walking.

i do not know where my money went, i did not buy presents for friends. i bought a PSP as a gift for myself though.
now it adds up.. got a 1 gig memory card for my cellphone.. bought a PSP.. i eat out a lot.. bought plane tickets for Guimaras. which reminds me about Buenavista.. if my memory serves me right, the last time i went there was 7 years ago. im looking forward to seeing kins.

i have always wanted to be a motorist, i want to be mobile. well maybe this is as good as it gets. it sucks!

december 15

just another day..

received 15 more text messages than the usual 5 per day. spent the entire day at the office. time management isn't the answer.. compromise is. you need to let go of one thing so you can accomplish the other. prioritizing would probably best describe it. you will have a problem if the the things involved are equally important.

thank you for all the people that remembered.

PAALAALA: siguraduhing may barya bago makipag agawan sa frontseat!

"ay na una sya.. sa likod na lang tayo" sabi ng isang babae sa kasama nya. ang nakapa ko lang sa bulsa ko ay lip balm at ballpens.. nyak! baba agad ako. ginawa ko? naglakad pauwi. ang tumatakbo sa isip ko nun ay ang mga sumusunod:
ba't di ako piloto? malaki na ako a.. ano nangyari?
palaging akong inaantok! ang daming kailangang gawin.
masaya ako nung napromote ako pero bakit di na ngayon? dahil ba kasi palagi akong inaantok?
nagapply lang naman ako kasi ang daming call sa umaga dati.. nautakan ako noon.
di ko pa rin makalimutan ang isang appraisal ko! naalala ko ang supervisor na nagbigay sa akin ng mababang grade tuwing payday nababadtrip ako. di pwedeng objective?

december 1

an excerpt from our last conversation:

me: magpuli ko da wala ka man gaupod maggwa
b-boy: text lang ko bala
me: sige a, gwa ta makabalik ko
b-boy: ara ko na

i received a call from a friend saying that b-boy just passed away. i couldn't believe that i started calling friends to check if the grim news is true, i was thinking it can't be true, he is too young to die, that and it was his cousin, a friend who was the class clown who was the bearer of the bad news. a few calls and texts later confirms the very tragic event.
the only thing that was going through my mind that time was to book a ticket so i can be there for the funeral.
i took the second to the last flight from manila and went straight to the where his wake was held.
though i was already looking down on my friend, i still can't believe that he lies there lifeless. i treat him as one of my closest friends.. its just so sad that we lost touch over the years.

well, true to his words.. he was there when i went back to bacolod.

happy birthday b-boy!

privacy

i am not one who complains.. well, not a lot at least. i believe people should understand their bounds and respect other people's. i'm really big on this because i do not want to tip-toe around my own apartment. which really sucks if you think about it. i'm not mad, i'm just a little pissed.

whats in a name?

searching urbandub on search engines will confuse you a bit. results will show a band in london and a band that hails from cebu, philippines. i couldn't care less, i'm still a big fan of the latter. \m/

the son of man


there are people who command respect, people who can change the mood of a room or gathering the minute that they step in. on the other hand, there are those that are invisible, those who are unnoticed. i belong to the latter. dont get me wrong though, i do not regard it as a bad thing.

inconvenienced may not be the right word.. hell, i don't even know if that word is in the dictionary. theres nothing like having no choice to make you feel responsible and obligated. i thought my makati-to-caloocan-to-makati ordeals are history but lo and behold, another entry for "Clown, this is your life!". i saw a lot of wheelchairs and strollers. ironic? i do not know. mission: move target from point A to point B. nothing to it right.. well, think again.. not if you are tired and in dire need of sleep. i had to muster all my strength just to stay awake, which is a feat on its own. my responses were limited to yes, no, maybe and at times grunts.

Disclaimer: i do not even know what ironic means.

I love you very much honey! Thank you for being you.

seeing an old friend should be a pleasant experience. i could not understand why for some reason it felt awkward seeing mitch, must be because we havent seen each other for quite some time now. i was walking from our apartment to the office when i bumped into her. after the usual “how are you’s”, we parted ways with a high-5. yes, a high-5!

CLOWN

walking from our apartment to the office serves me two purpose. one, exercise (got to get rid of my beer belly) and two, think about a lot of things. things that i need to do, do not want to do and should do. more often than not, i also think about what will become of me a few years from now. being a "clown" is no joke. this needs to change soon. i'm still hopeful..

ARATILIS = SARISA = DATILIS

mahilig ako sa aratilis dati pero 'di pa ako nakakain nun ulit dito sa manila kasi napansin ko lang, sa sementeryo kalimitan tumutubo ang aratilis dito. samantalang sa bacolod sa mga bahay at sa tabing ilog. dati pagnakakita ako ng puno ng aratilis na hitik sa bunga, akyat agad ako, pero iba dito, medyo naiba ang tingin ko sa aratilis. ano nga bang punto ng sinulat ko na ito? wala! mahilig lang talaga ako sa aratilis dati pero hindi na ngayon.

KEY TO HAPPINESS: LOWERED EXPECTATIONS
from Premium Blend's commercial.

Luis Young Sr. a.k.a. ASYONG

nagpaadmit na naman ang tatay ko. minsan, iniisip ko na psychological lang naman e, pagkarating namin sa ospital, ayos na sya. kakagising ko lang, yung unang text na nabasa ko ay: "masama raw pakiramdam nang papa mo". wala daw syang ganang kumain at sinusuka nya mga kinakain nya, pero marami naman nakain nya sa ospital. natawa pa nga ako sa tinanong ng nurse: "yun lang po ang rason ba't kayo nagpaadmit?"
sabi ng doctor acidic daw sya at dinagdagan na naman ang gamot nya. sabi ko sa kanya before pumunta sa admission office, "pa, baka acid lang yan" pero tinignan lang nya ako.

sang wala pa ko obra, wala gid problema.. inom sa gabi-i.. bugtaw tigpalanyaga.. tambay-tambay.. basket sa hapon.. ibakal ilimnon ang dinag-an. wala gid ko gypon kabalo kung ano matabo sa kabuhi ko. wala man sinuptan, wala man plano. hidlaw na ko mag-inom tanduay. kinanglan ko na gid manumdum kung ano himu-on ko sa kabuhi ko..

never in my wildest dreams

i was contented where i was but with all these calls, i want out. i hope i get it this time.. its actually just my 2nd application, i really do hope i make the cut. my sister and mother really believes in me so much that it will make them very happy if i get this, and of course personally, i will be ecstatic.
well, if it will not work out, there is always the PM shift.

dugay na ko wala ka post pero amo man gyapon ang mga reklamo.. ginatamad magobra kag inom lang ang upisyo. indi gid ka daog sa lotto.. mal-i ko man ya na kinanglan gle maggasto para dira..

tagal ko nang di nakapagpost pero pareho pa rin ang mga reklamo.. tinatamad magtrabaho at inom pa din ang inaatupag. di manalo-nalo sa lotto.. malay ko bang kailangan maggasta para dun..

WHY DID I CROSS THE ROAD?

"cool na cool ka brod a!" i was not sure if it was a compliment, so i did not reply..
nakita ko na nung malayo pa lang ang mamang nakamotor.. ang layo nya pa kaya tumawid ako, nasa kabila na ko nung sumigaw sya.. medjo nagulat ako kasi ang layo nya at wala namang mga sasakyan kasi 6:30 pa lang ng umaga. 'di ko alam kung magpapasalamat ako o sigawan ko sya ng "ADICK!" (pwede ding A DICK! 'di ba! hehehe.) muntik pa nga syang matumba kaya napangiti na lang ako. ang sarap tuloy ng inum ko ng redhorses.

at nung pauwi, type pa nung conductor ang kasama kong "kilabot ng cendant".. babading-bading kasi kaya 'di malaman kung ano susukli sa amin.. at gusto pa sanang ibalik bayad namin.

heaven or hell?

neither been to heaven nor hell but it sure was hot in disco heaven! bodies bumping and grinding to house music.. there were pretty ladies that could pass for angels but they were all sweaty.. at may B.O. din pala ang mga mayayaman. hehehe. the party was kicked off by benjo marquez and was wrapped up by dj jamie richards.. i had loads of fun!

"one more shot?" i answered: "sure manure!"

i think i had a million shots.. this was at NBC tent last year (december 9). paul van dyk + jagermeister + beer = one hell of a good time!
my phone was vibrating.. the text read: "where are you? meet me at the bar".. i replied: i'm okay, i'm having a good time! i'm with a friend." after 2 minutes, my phone vibrated again.. "we went to this party together, we should go home together, where you at bro?". "go right ahead if you want to head home, i'm fine", was my response. i texted her: "i'm alright, i'll see you tomorrow." a couple of "i'm fine" and a dozen of "where are yous" later, i find myself home looking at my sister sleeping at our sofa.

WILL WORK FOR BEER

no ambition.. i want to be rich though.. i just want to drink every chance that i get.. if you think about it, i'm working for beer.. i know, pathetic.. hehehehe. but it works for me. can i get an amen brothers?

MASSKARA FESTIVAL

Bacolod’s most popular fiesta, is celebrated on the third weekend of October closest to October 19, the city’s charter day anniversary.
Festivities kick off with food fairs, mask-making contests, brass band competitions, beauty and talent pageants, a windsurfing regatta, drinking and eating contests, trade fairs and exhibits.
The climax is a mardi-gras parade where revellers don elaborate mask and costumes and dance to Latin rhythms Rio de Janiero style.
Bacolod City is known as the the "City of Smiles". The Bacolod, as they are called, are proud of their culture as being strong willed with a warm heart.
Bacolod also boasts of antique houses, old churches that dates back during the Spanish time, and other cultural sites. http://www.lakbaypilipinas.com/maskara_festival.html

i want to go home and get wasted! kailangan ko ng pera! imagine, a week of delicious and cheap food. chicken inasal, cansi, bob's chicken sate, soup #5, batchoy kag porchop ni mommy (sa tupad la salle), sisig sa taste station.. ginugutom ako! my mouth is watering.. napaearly lunch tuloy ako.. hehehe. tuloy? namit man na mo!

CHANGE
blind melon

I don't feel the suns comin' out today
its staying in, its gonna find another way.
As I sit here in this misery, I don't
think I'll ever see the sun from here.
And oh as I fade away,
they'll all look at me and say, and they'll say,
Hey look at him! I'll never live that way.
But that's okaythey're just afraid to change.
When you feel your life ain't worth living
you've got to stand up and
take a look around you then a look way up to the sky.
And when your deepest thoughts are broken,
keep on dreaming boy, cause when you stop dreamin'
it's time to die.
And as we all play parts of tomorrow,
some ways will work and other ways we'll play.
But I know we all can't stay here forever,
so I want to write my words on the face of today.
and then they'll paint it
And oh as I fade away,
they'll all look at me and they'll say,
Hey look at him and where he is these days.
When life is hard, you have to change.

from http://www.lyricsondemand.com

a little bit of reggae..

me feeling irè man! a little island flavor will do you good: "..every little thing gonna be all right.."
listened to my favorite bob marley song, three little birds.. had a sudden thirst for tanduay.. that and it also made me think twice about resigning.. come to think of it, it would not be that easy to adjust to a new work environment.
it occurred to me that all i write about are my rants about work.. well, life is still good, lunch and dinners with my kins are always a blast, seeing my cute cousins makes it extra special, drinking sessions with co-workers.. all in all life is just dandy.

i've been with peoplesupport for exactly 3 years to date.. i lasted that long because the pay is okay and its hard to find a "real job". on the day that marks my 3rd year with the company i am contemplating about resigning. i need time off to think about this but i can't file for leave. if i opt to stay, i can apply for account transfer since applying for a higher position is not an option, i have to wait until november for my warning to slide down.

E-MAIL TEAM GO ON AVAIL!!!

oh man! where do i begin? e-mail team, go on avail? it does not sound right (daw ka wrong bla haw).. e-mail team nga di ba! when there are calls on queue, we take calls and on downtime we process emails (email lang pahinga namin? pahinga ba yun?).. they flag us like crazy if we do not go on avail immediately.. its not my habit to curse so i'm not going to start here.. they should get their act straight. and by the way, thank you for all the privileges that we are enjoying! please don't take them away.. pretty please.

The Potomac River flows into Chesapeake Bay, located along the mid-Atlantic coast of the United States.

cx: yes, its CHESAPEAKE***********.COM..
sunoy: can you spell it out..
cx: you know, like the CHESAPEAKE bay, i just need for you to update my name servers..
sunoy: ok.. can you give me your User ID so i can make the changes for you.. (palusot)
cx: its potomacpaddlesports (pronounced like tomacpaddlesports)..
sunoy: can you please spell the word before paddle.. (was opening google this time) hehehe.
cx: like the great falls.. i thought your from the U.S.. its in virginia..
sunoy: sorry, sir your call was routed to a satellite callcenter in the philippines.. (umamin)
cx: no wonder you can't spell it.. let me spell it for you.

above is an excerpt from my most recent call.. my opening was my name is lewis.. not i'm from the U.S.. are you deaf? :) just thought it was funny..

yeah.. yeah.. i know.. well, everybodys into it.. might as well go with the flow.. :)